I Traded My Youth For All These Scars

Ugly tattoos.  Non-existent photo albums.  A burning desire to make the devil laugh.  It’s pretty much all I have to remind me of 43 years on this planet.  Don’t talk to me.  I’m not interested in talking.  Unless you’re just going to shut the fuck up and listen.  That right there interests me.

I don’t need anyone.  Especially the ones who aren’t ever here.  I don’t reach out to the ones I love the most.  Even in my darkest moments when the most benevolent grace shines a light down on my worst intentions.  I don’t reach out.  I prefer the cold.

Please don’t be arrogant enough to think I could possibly get lonely.  Your love is weak, and at best a nightmare car crash.  Do you believe I am thinking of you?  You weren’t designed to comprehend me.  We’re not in this together.  There is no we.  There is no together.  There is only that sick little feeling inside you knowing that you can’t rub up against my soul.

Death cries out.  I empathize.  Death won’t let me down in the end.  Death is the only one I can count on.

I don’t live my life for you.  I don’t live my life for me.  Things don’t happen for a reason, you stupid fucking arrogant cunts.  There are only reasons things happen.  Your self deceit is so fucking pleasing because the alternative is too god damn terrifying.  Grow the fuck up.  I refuse to condescend to your bad fucking case of wishful thinking.

It will all end in darkness.

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3 Comments so far:

  1. Chris Smiley says:

    He’s drunk again, it’s time to fight
    She must have done something wrong tonight
    The living room becomes a boxing ring
    It’s time to run when you see him
    Clenching his hands
    She’s just a woman
    Never Again

    I hear her scream, from down the hall
    Amazing she can even talk at all
    She cries to me, Go back to bed
    I’m terrified that she’ll wind up
    Dead in his hands, She’s just a woman
    Never Again

    Been there before, but not like this
    Seen it before, but not like this
    Never before have I ever
    Seen it this bad
    She’s just a woman
    Never Again

    Just tell the nurse, you slipped and fell
    It starts to sting as it starts to swell
    She looks at you, she wants the truth
    It’s right out there in the waiting room
    With those hands
    Lookin just as sweet as he can
    Never Again

    Seen it before, but not like this
    Been there before, but not like this
    Never before have I ever
    Seen it this bad
    She’s just a woman
    Never Again

    Father’s a name you haven’t earned yet
    You’re just a child with a temper
    Haven’t you heard “Don’t hit a lady”?
    Kickin’ your ass would be a pleasure

    He’s drunk again, it’s time to fight
    Same old shit, just on a different night
    She grabs the gun, she’s had enough
    Tonight she’ll find out how fucking
    Tough is this man
    Pulls the trigger as fast as she can
    Never Again

    Seen it before, but not like this
    Been there before, but not like this
    Never before have I ever
    Seen it this bad
    She’s just a woman
    Never Again

  2. T says:

    Methinks you doth protest to much – Ihre lieber cunt.

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