Author: Doug Helle

The Reckoning

Vindicating myself was all the therapy that I needed.  Also take the idea very seriously this isn’t about reconciliation.  It’s about the truth.  It’s about justice.  And most importantly, revenge.  I’m not interested in reconciliation at this point.  I’m not interested in navigating 23 years of brainwashing.  That and I’m not interested in a world…


I CHANGED MY MIND – STAY TUNED


End Times

Doug Hell is dead.  The persona.  I’m not a mentally ill maverick folk artist.  I’m a normal person who endured immense trauma.  It was on me to heal from it this entire time.  Doug Hell is gone now. I stood before my demons and I FUCKED THEM UP.  I broke what was breaking me. This…


I QUIT GREEN JELLY

Or I got fired.  I’m not sure. Either way it was time.  No one is really in Green Jelly.  Bill Manspeaker is in Green Jelly.  It’s Bill and simps from all over the world who work for free under the guise of Bill providing actuality to their rock star dreams. I’m still a fan of…


First Week Of Carnivore


Carnivore

Hey guys. So in 2023 I vowed to get into better shape. And I did. The first two months was strict carnivore. I went from 250 to 220. In March 2023 I started the gym. I also loosened up a little on the diet. But between the gym and a moderately healthy lifestyle I managed…


2024

The year everything changed. I turned 50.  I discovered my own mortality.  Time is more precious. I’ve started a carnivore channel on Youtube.  It’s for no other reason than to keep me accountable. I look disgusting and I bare it all.  No filters (not that I would know what to do with them.  No fancy…


Better Late Than Never You Insignificant Fucks

I wish I figured it all out 20 years ago, or at the very least wasn’t such a miserable bastard with narcissistic tendencies.  I didn’t get my Low Latent Inhibition diagnosis until I was in my forties.  Same goes for my Autism Spectrum Disorder diagnosis.  My ex-wife, Martine, gets the assist for that one.  After…


Picture My Face

So my homeboy Gene Champagne from Teenage Head, and more importantly, The Killjoys made a post on Facebook offering two free tickets to a show of his with his solo project, Gene Champagne And The Unteens.  The tickets weren’t free however.  In order to acquire them you had to tell him what he referred Gord…


DEAD ECHOES

It’s over. I’ve let it all go.  There will still be discussions to further growth, but the lament is with Jesus now. I’m not religious.  Faith does seem attractive.  It would be great if I could turn the reigns over to the lord, or let the holy ghost take over, but this is on me. …